I wanted to create my own word for the project, and I came up with “obdurate” by combining the prefix “ob”, which roughly means “to bring an end to”, and “durate”, derived from “duration”. Thus “obdurate” is to “bring an end to the enduring”, or something like that. Then, when I was typing the name into the Bandcamp page, I misspelt “obdurate”, and then when I was proof reading it I noticed and so I corrected the spelling and when I did, I noticed that the red squiggly underline went away… so “obdurate” actually was a word and I didn’t realise that!
So, then I looked up the definition of “obdurate” and it essentially means “unmoving in opinion”, like when you try to argue with somebody but they’re “completely obdurate”. I thought about this word and realised it had a nice philosophical interpretation. The interesting question to me was “what if you are the obdurate one?” Personally, I can think of times in my life where it seems my own stubborn mind is what has caused the problem, especially problems involving anxiety, lack of certainty, acceptance of the “unknown” etc. It can be hard when your own mind is the obdurate one, and I am sure that the only escape is to accept it and work with yourself rather than against yourself, but I certainly haven’t mastered putting this into practice yet.
As per my influences, I have both abstract and concrete influences. Abstractly, I love the “invention/creation” aspect of music “what has not been done yet but which in theory could have been done decades ago”, especially when it comes to composition. I am also a mathematics PhD student and I draw a lot of influence for my music from conversations I’ve had with other mathematicians. More concretely, I adore Between the Buried and Me for their creativity and compositional control they showed in Colors through to the Parallax II. I also love Haken, Fair to Midland, Orbs, Unexpect, etc, however I turned at some point towards “heavier” influences, because I simply found them to be more creative than a lot of “prog” music. Examples who come to name are Portal, Liturgy, Krallice, Gorguts, Deathspell
Omega, and lesser-known bands like Cleric, Tulip, Hypno5e, Tenue, and others.